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At the Edge (Inktober)

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Depression is a dangerous beast.
It always catches you when you are at the edge.

I know people that are close to me that have been affected by depression. I always tought that this beast would never catch me because I always tend to look at the positive side of things.

But recently I have not been lucky in finding work, so it became a struggle to pay the bills. I started posting more and more of my work on Facebook, here on deviantart, Behance, and everywhere I could think of to get some feedback and hopefully more work. I started bugging every fan page on Facebook to share my work. I posted my artworks in many groups, forums, blogs, etc. No one seems to care.

The more I do it, the less it seems effective. To the point where I constantly wonder if I took the right decision 3 years ago when I decided I wanted to be an Illustrator and if I should just abandon my life long dream. Am I good enough? Will I ever be good enough? This is the part that really gets me depressed sometimes. I have worked so hard in the last 3 years and it all seems useless if I just go get a job I don't like just for money.

But you know what? I'm going to get up, turn around and kick that beast right in the face and never stop believing that one day I can make it.

Don't get me wrong, I know that my carreer choices or money problems are not as serious as someone who suffers from depression because of mental or health issues. But now I know the feeling of being at the edge wondering if it will ever get better. And I refuse to believe that the only solution is to abandon hope. There's always another way. There's always a better way. And I will find it! And you can do it too!

Thanks for reading! And by the way, if you need an illustrator, contact me!! ;)
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MrRemoraman's avatar
Best advice ever, man, and I know the feeling.  I wanted to be a writer for SOOOOO long, and then suddenly decided, rather suddenly, that i wanted to go into science instead.  I've questioned that decision just about every week for eight years.  Depression gets you , man, but that doesn't mean you have to let it get you down.

Great illustration, and it REALLy portrays what it feels like, to be so boxed in by something hideous and multifarious.  Thanks for this.